hey bloggie! blogger.com has got a new look today! haha but kinda prefer the old layout...more bluish...now like light brown like dat...anyway thats besides the point...it's 2am now and i'm still not asleep...thats quite bad...and my shoulder's aching badly! but i feel i'f got to post this first, if not i'm afraid tmr i'll forgot what i wanna post. K, one of my teammates let me view his archives in his blog and i think i'm glad i read it...cos if not, i'd probably haf quite a different opinion of him. well, like what simon cowell said after saying bad things abt george huff previously[abt him being like the "extra" instead of the lead]...like him, i must say i need to take back my words...cos i'm pretty sorry how i always called him loser...i always refer to him as that, and i cant even remember whether i did call him loser right in his face b4....probably during sum of the trainings, i cant remember...and probably during our taman negara trip in 2002...but i just haf to take those words back...hmmm he may not realise this, but i think he's a much better person than he thinks or thought he is...oh yea must say i'm quite lucky that we are even on toking terms[haha chatting terms i mean]...cos back in my TK days, i was like so sure i dint wanna c his face cos his father had always shout and shout when our sch played against their girls' team. woah my whole team was like trying to go even louder man...but anyway, now[k not now, 2 yrs ago i mean] that i ended up in TJ playing badminton, the scenario just changes for me...first i was pretty unsure about getting along with ppl who werent from TK...then, a more uphill task for me was getting along with AHS ppl...so when i found out that i could actually bring myself to get to know ppl from tat sch, i was actually amazed...hmmm oh no i realise i'm digressing...why am i toking abt myself instead...actually all i wanted to say is that having read my teammate's blog, i was pretty touched abt sum of the posts...well those posts where he actually mention abt the tournament and the team...its like...just the truth and nothing else...like he oredi sweared in court that he'd tell the truth, nothing but the truth...altho we can nv know exactly the depths of one's thinking [as in we already spend our lifetime searching for ourselves, so what do we know abt others rite?], i think he was sincere abt what he wrote...yea thats abt it...haha but his posts getting crappy nowadays...k dunno what to say oredi, lost my trail of thought just like tat man! perhaps all i can say is frens, whatever we do, we shd just be ourselves...and toking abt this, i must also say sorry to myself for trying to put on a front sumtimes...we find that we'll feel lighter and happier when we dun put on a front...all our lives, we may be putting on a front to pls our dad, mum and siblings...so ppl, let's just haf fun and let go yea? hehe thinking abt that, me feeling excited that me meeting my frens later in the day[now being 2.40am already!]...gg to seoul garden and i'm sure we'f got lots to share! so thats abt it ppl...ciaoz!
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