hmm well...i dun really know how to start...perhaps i'll start with the good things first...to make myself feel better...FANTASIA WON!!! super-cool...haha the first impression i had of her was: Macy Gray. her voice really quite similar to that of Macy's...dint think she would come all the way to the finals, to tell the truth...at first, i thought she had too much attitude...attitude that sum ppl might haf a prob with...reminds me of Marcus Chow, my junior...one of my juniors told me he said sth like this b4: "I dun have AP. I just have an attitude that you have a problem with...". I tot that sounds quite cool, but anyway, we'r not discussing abt him here...so yea i'm happy fantasia is crowned the next AI...not that Diana sings badly, but yea I now love that attitude of Fantasia...lol...okok i'm not like a die-hard fan of fantasia or sth, but when sumbody great wins, i'm happy for that person...which comfortably brings me to the next topic...the badminton finals...my guy juniors are just hours away from making their steps onto the courts this afternn...mind ya it's oredi 1.06am on my comp clock...not sure whether they are sleeping, or dreaming, or doing imagery...haha...i surely hope my juniors will win this afternn...its quite boring having RJ winning everytime...oh but the RJ gals must win though! those who follow my blog or my fellow badminton mates would know why...haha...k anyway, before heading for the jurong east sports hall, me will be meeting trina and angel for IMM trip first. just haf lunch and look out for things we may need for uni...oh yea talking abt uni, now i cant decide whether to stay in hostel anot...i know my house is actually not terribly far from NUS, so there's not a pressing need for me to stay on campus...but i was thinking, if i stay there for weekdays, my work will be more coordinated...ok will sounds abit too "over", cos i know i'll struggle wherever i am anyway...i'm good at planning but executing that very plan is another question...well, if i stay in hostel, i dun need to travel so much i guess...like evrything will be ard there...and if i haf projects to do until nighttime, it's more feasible for me to stay on campus...gg home late at night isnt good and waking up relatively early the next day again to travel to sch is quite a hassle then....if only i can get to see the rooms at eusoff and temasek halls before applying for them...talking abt applying, NUS is forever slow...my letter still hasnt reached me yet! oh yea back to the hostel topic, there are also reasons drawing me away from staying in hostel...i get homesick easily...and i think i'll miss my lil sis too much...and yea, i depend on my mum alot too! my mum, my dad, my siblings....i dun think i can bear leaving them and only coming back on weekends...woah i thank the Almighty for not making me a guy...i'll probably faint doing NS...HAHA...and the money spent on room fees and the meal plans[dunno why got, will feel like being in NS camp, or even worse, in jail], is it worth it? cos i can happily haf meals at other places and come home for a nice dinner at night...k its really getting to me...cos yesterday, i couldnt decide...today i oso dunno what to decide...just now i just told trina and angel i'll apply for one semester...i dint think of leaving the family part yet...hmm...and i'm not that type who studies very well away from home oso, altho towards the A levels, i was spending time in sch revising more than i did at home...hmm ok perhaps its the fickle-minded nature of females....now i think i shouldnt stay at the hostel...cos even when i pursue my studies, i do wanna spend a lot of time with my family...cos in the past 6 yrs, i dun think i did enuff of that...since uni wun be so much abt CCAs, altho it does help for sum stuff, i guess coming home everyday to just maybe haf a lil chat with my family members before sleeping is essential to having a happy and harmonious family....yea how can i bear leaving my sis for 5 days??? the other time when i went to Taman Negara, she oredi din recognise me when i came back. altho now she's better at recognising, she's only comfortable with ppl who spends a lot of time with her. and i wouldnt wanna drift away from my family cos of studies...woooo...i make it sound like i'm gg to a faraway place forever, but i guess its true...i love my family so, yea perhaps i'll give up the idea of staying at the hostel...i know trina and angel may kill me for being so indecisive, but sorry ppl...i'm not ready to live away from the family...shit lar, later when i get married how? i think i'm that type who will cry and cry when i leave my family to live on my own...oh well, thats me...
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